Twitter

May 2, 2014

I rarely blog on here anymore because I’ve been keeping it to 140 characters! It’s fun to make brief, random posts on that than sitting to write on here. Also, I feel like I want these posts to be profound or thought-provoking at the very least, whereas on Twitter I can post things like this:

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But I am going to try to blog here more frequently.

Regret

June 28, 2013

Regret is a complicated thing. Just because a relationship ended painfully, do I regret it? I was so happy while it was happening. But it hurts to think about it now. You build trust, you become raw and exposed. It is so much harder when they move on. What is closure? I don’t know what it is, but I somehow feel incomplete without it. I guess what it comes down to is being rejected. It’s really hard to accept that. I miss people. I miss certain relationships. Not necessarily romantic relationships, either. When your trust is violated, whether by a romantic interest or friend, it hurts. But would I different now if I hadn’t engaged in the particular relationship in that time in my life?

My Favorite Movie

March 28, 2013

Recently, an actor friend asked what my favorite movie is. Upon hearing my response, he replied that the director of this movie makes all fluff and no substance. He judged me because of my favorite movie.

His judgment irritated me. He made me feel like I must not know anything about movies because it is what he considers “fluff.”

The nature of the question set me up to be judged. I don’t think my favorite movie is the best movie ever made by any means. But it has sentimental significance.

This movie reminds me of a time in my life when I had a close group of girl friends. We spent our weekdays in school together and our weekends swooning over male movie stars because we were too embarrassed to talk about our real life crushes. The romance in my favorite movie made us believe that love conquers all and that we deserve to be appreciated by men.

Now life is a little more serious and there are “good” movies and “bad” movies. I guess the only movies that are supposed to matter are the award nominees, the rest is just fluff.

Well, I’m not going to apologize for enjoying movies that make me smile, whether they have “substance” or not.

An Afternoon at LACMA

February 8, 2013

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LACMA did have one of his earliest masterpieces, “Saint Francis of Assisi in Ecstasy”

Just a few days before its closing, I finally made it to the “Caravaggio and His Legacy” exhibit at LACMA. Caravaggio is known for his undefined space and play of light. It seemed almost unfair to put his disciples’s paintings next to his, because he is the master. There were very few actual Caravaggio paintings; nonetheless, it was still an interesting exhibit. There was even one Velazquez painting from early in his career that was in Caravaggio’s style, which I was very excited to see.

I was also impressed to see a few works from Valentin de Boulogne, with whom I was not familiar with before seeing this exhibit. Particularly, I enjoyed his painting, “Judith.” It is clearly in the Caravaggio style, but it is in his unique interpretation.

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I was similarly impressed with Simon Vouet’s “Saint Jerome and the Angel.” I did not know about him before this exhibit, either. I studied art history in Spain, which is why I’m obsessed with Velazquez and Goya and am less familiar with French painters.

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HOT. But seriously, beautiful painting.

Finally, one more painting from the exhibit I really enjoyed was “The Denial of Saint Peter” by Gerard Seghers.

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I love the use of light in this. That’s so Caravaggio.

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Summer Road Trip

May 28, 2012

Here it is, nearly a year after my road trip across the country, I am finally putting some photos up!

Random, really old town hall building in Cambridge, Ohio, where we stopped to have lunch on Day One!

Papa E and I at a rest stop. Guess which state!

Gateway Arch from a distance

The mighty Mississippi

The Mississippi was flooded last summer in case you forgot

This was the door for the little pods that take you to the top of the Arch. The metal part doesn’t open, it is just that beige part with the “7”

The impossibly small pods that take you to the top of the Arch. There are five seats in each pod, and we had five adults in our pod. It was cozy.

View from the top of the Arch

The Big E and I at the top of the Arch. We rode up on one side then descended down the other, so we went all the way through!

Mama E’s Chicken and Waffle Kitchen! It was closed.

This was difficult to find. It’s like a quarter mile off the road.

Unfortunately we didn’t bring spray paint

Flat, boring Texas

Arizona was so pretty!

Grand Canyon! My camera could not capture how unbelievably beautiful it was. Everyone must visit here!

Another Grand Canyon pic

Sliver of the Colorado River

Sunset from the passenger’s seat

Malibu

Thoughts on Privacy

May 25, 2012

Well, it has been a very long time since I’ve updated this blog, but I’ve had some thoughts on privacy lately that I would like to make public.

A few weeks ago, someone was posting inappropriate comments on my blog. It was so random because it’s not like this blog is popular at all by any means, so I do not know what they were trying to accomplish by writing obscene comments. Plus, as I mentioned, I have no been active with this page, so I do not understand the intention.

I consider myself a private person. I am not the kind of person that can share intimate thoughts and details about my life with people I do not trust. However, I have a Facebook page, a Twitter account, and this blog, so I am obviously not as candid as I believe myself to be. Through these accounts, I share photos and little stories about my life. Also, I am actively pursuing acting as a career, which requires me to be very vulnerable and to express myself for an audience.

Does this mean I have to accept that there will be people, from my past and strangers, who will want to trash me publicly? I guess I have to shift my perception of my privacy and be more conscious of what information I put out into the open.

In conclusion, haters gon’ hate.

 

May 10, 2011

May 10, 2011

So… there has been an abnormally huge amount of hits my blog today.

I wonder what’s up…

I found two new products that I have to name drop because are perfect for me and hopefully someone else out there can enjoy them too!

First, I used the last of both of my face washes AND my oil absorbing sheets, so I had to head right to CVS. It was an emergency that needed to be resolved immediately. Background: I have very oily skin and I had acne my entire teenage life, so I am very compulsive about the products I use on my face. I wash in the morning with a light foaming cleanser, then I use a deeper cream cleanser before bed. Anyways, I went to CVS and picked up my usual morning cleanser, but I tend to rotate between a few nighttime cleansers. I was shopping around, and there it was: a product I could use on my sensitive skin that would help oil control as well. It’s Neutrogena Clear Pore Cleanser Mask. Get this, it can be used as a cleanser everyday of the week AND/OR you can rub it on your face and leave it there for a few minutes to use it as a mask twice a week! Usually masks have too many crazy fragrances to make you feel relaxed or whatever, which make me break out. But I remember I actually was prescribed a mask when I had acne and it was the love of my life, but I haven’t found a good over-the-counter one since. It must be said, however, that tonight was my first using it, so if I wake up tomorrow morning horrifically broken out, I will return with an angry post haha.

Next, and this is very exciting, I bought this book a long time ago called, “The Introvert Advantage: How to Thrive in an Extrovert World” by Dr. Marti Olsen Laney. I have a tendency to get excited at bookstores and buy like ten books at once, so it’s been sitting on the shelf as I have read other books. So I was flipping around the tv channels, and nothing was on, and then I glanced over and picked up this book. I just finished “Personal History” by Katharine Graham (another EXCELLENT albeit time consuming read), so I started to read this Introvert book. OH MY GOD. Talk about eye-opening!! I always knew I had weird habits and quirks that were just not normal and I thought were unique to me, but it turns out, it’s just introversion! It even gets down to very specific traits that are typical, such as needing naps and being grouchy after being with people or doing activities for too long! It’s so funny because I can shop for like two hours to the minute, but then I have to stop or I will be miserable! BUT, the book clarifies the stigmas that introverts are shy or lack confidence, which is not true for me, we just have a different energy and way of dealing with social, professional, and interpersonal relationships.

Just a few days ago, a friend of a friend gave me a ride back to the district. Afterwards, I told my sister that she was trying to chit chat and I was having none of it. I wasn’t trying to be rude, I just don’t like small talk. The book also pointed out another weird trait of mine, which is that introverts dread returning phone calls. And the author explains that we are introspective and do not communicate in the same way as extroverts, but it’s not bad or incorrect, it is just different. I am only a quarter of a way through the book, and I have already learned so much about myself. Like I said, I knew I had these odd characteristics, which I thought were just unique to me as a peculiar person, but it turns out, I’m not a super freak! So yay! That’s always good and welcome news.

Current Life

February 16, 2011

My birthday is in a week exactly! I don’t think I’m really going to do anything to celebrate, but I’m not dreading it. A lot of people my age joke about the horror of growing older, but I’m still in my young twenties, so I can’t be anything but happy!

This is really an exciting time of life: the last few months of college [note: I may have improperly used the colon in this sentence, sorry my grammar lovers!]. We’re all scrambling to figure out life but we love partying in the meantime! There just seems to be so much less bullsh** because nobody cares anymore; it doesn’t matter.

Final semester!!!

February 4, 2011

I am a final semester senior, which means I have to start to figure my life out! Crazy. I’m a procrastinator, so I’m not even going to think about the future until the end of April, but still, it’s the beginning of February, the deadline’s approaching!

This morning, I was supposed to have an interview for an internship at 11 a.m. near Farragut North. I was pretty sure there was a bus by my campus that went right by the location, so I looked it up, and sure enough, there was. I arrived at the bus stop at 10:20 a.m. because the bus was supposed to get there at 10:27 a.m. By 10:50 a.m., not bus had come, so I had to call and tell them I would be late. By 11:05 a.m., I was still at the bus stop, waiting for a bus. For some reason, that line from Titanic popped into my head, “Wait to die. Wait to live. Wait for an absolution that would never come.” Yes, I memorize movie quotations, what of it? Anyways, it was not as dramatic as waiting for the Lusitania or whatever ship eventually picked up the passengers from the Titanic, BUT, it is possible that I won’t get this internship since I cannot even show up on time. Thanks WMATA. Also, I did not even go out last night, that’s how important this interview was to me! Hopefully all goes well this afternoon and I can convince them that I am in fact responsible. We’ll see!